Monday, March 23, 2015

The End

The hardest thing to do is to say goodbye to a loved one, once the time has come for them to close their eyes.  We all know we didn't come here to stay, but when its time to say goodbye, it really is just so hard to say goodbye.  You should never be that mad with someone that you never get to resolve whatever issues that caused you to stop communicating.  You should never get that mad that you never get the chance to apologize or have a sit-down.  As my father's one-year anniversary of his death quickly approaches, that's all that I think about.  I never got the chance to really have that father-daughter talk especially after his sister, my aunt told him some things that I had said.  I am living with so much regret, but there's nothing that I can really do.  Every time I  go over the obituary or read the online book that the funeral home provided for mourners to leave messages, I can't help but to feel slighted because my cousin was with him the night he died.  That really bothers me, not because she sat there, but because I wasn't able to.  Don't get me wrong I'm glad he wasn't by himself. I just hope when I get on my knees at night, or when I call upon my father me, he is able to hear me.  There is so many things that I would have like to change.  That's why if you need to make amends with a love one, don't wait until its too late. Don't wait until tomorrow, tomorrow may never come.


  1. Omg I love this so much ! My family too is divide and has always been. My mother and grandmother isn't speaking to each other over something so petty ( as always) and it hurts my soul to think grown folks Is okay with that. But like you said it's good to seek help and share love to others !

  2. Annette, this one hurts a lot. I didn't get the apologies from my father that was out of my life for 40 yrs.I had to find him. I saw him once for 4 days, got on a plane and came back home.I saw him one year later in a box. So much left unsaid. I had so much angry, but his health safe him from me and letting that angry out.I have found a way to release it and forgive him. Talk to him, tell him what is in your heart and be free. Don't live the rest of your life regretting. :)